Onesided Love

I never trusted in real life friends, really. The only ones I trust are my family and wierdly enough, strangers from the net. I'll always felt like something was missing in my life, but never knew what. Everyday is the same, go to school, come home, sit there infront of the computer, eat and sleep. There was nothing new, until one day . . .

I was walking in the city and accidently droppes my phone. I was about to pick it up when you took it for me. You gave the phone to me and gave me the angelic smile of yours. I was capitivated by that and stood still in daze for a second.
- Be more careful next time, he said with the same sweet smile.
Then he left.

After summer break.

I was going to a new unknown school, got new friends. But still something was missing. What was that thing that's missing in me? I sighed and looked at the school entrance. Suddenly I saw this guy with the angelic smile before. It was you again! I felt my heart beating faster and didn't dare to come closer to you. You had many friends and were laughing so happily. And there I stood again, watching in daze. What are those feelings?

I realized that you were in the same class and that you sat next to me. You kept talking to your other neighbour while I sat in silence. Of course you wouldn't recognize me, we just met once. But I felt the pain in my heart and looked down to not let the other see my hurtful face. Suddenly you turned to me and smiled.
- Have you lost your phone yet? you asked.
I got surprised and yelled "what?" to him. Everyone in the class was laughing at me, including you. I felt how my chins started to blush, but tried to not show that. I got closer to you by beating him up, cause I couldn't figure out other ways to get you to notice me.

Months passed by and I felt happy. We talked much and you always smiling at me. I got your contacts on internet and looked everything you posted everyday. The missing pieces in my heart started to fill and I could not be happier than be near you. But there still something missing and I suddenly thought something to make me happier.
- Alright! I'll buy him a christmas present, I thought to myself.
I found a perfect christmas present for him and wrapped it up.

On Christmas eve.

As usual, I watched your posts even on christmas eve. I felt like a no-lifer, but I didn't care. I was about to comment "merry christmas" to you when suddenly, I saw a picture of you . . . and a girl I didn't know. You had changed your relationship status to "in relationship", not "single". I felt my heart ache and tears were dripping from my eyes. And I sat there for a long time realising "Of course you won't like me, we're from 2 different worlds". But I gave the christmas present to you anyway and acted like nothing happened.

Cause, it's just a crush, a onesided love . . .